Well here we are. at my 100th post. Allot has happened since my first one in November. It has been quite the journey on this new, healthier and toxic drama free sane path. I heard some news the other day that I figured would happen and makes me sad for an old friend all at the same time. When your soul gets crushed my the weight of a failed relationship EVERYONE needs time to be alone, deal, heal. Unfortunately some of us are not strong enough to be on our own for very long, so the damage keeps piling on, one failed relationship on top of another, in the hopes you ‘get it right’ this time.
Nothing can last if you pile one sunk relationship on top of another. Period. Just the way it is. Solves nothing. Old issues crop up, no period of self discovery, no ability to just go out socially, meet new people and form new realities. Find yourself. Own yourself. This joy is what is needed and I am embracing for the foreseeable future. Maybe forever. Unpacking the past, getting help with who you are, your faults and issues is so needed after ‘THE ONE’ ends. It takes time. Not a few months, and a new guy or gal to throw on top of things will invariably blow up in your face.
Peace. Joy. Smile. Always. Ya live, ya laugh, ya learn. A peaceful summer, some new friends, daughter time, peace for everyone.
When you are on the verge of completely burning your life to the ground by the most well meaning yet misguided and poor life choices, you tend to count your blessings everyday as I do. It is like a rebirth, a chance to take your lumps now as opposed to getting destroyed by the inevitable down the road..